Please don't struggle alone - I'm good at listening and phone counselling can give you the opportunity you need to talk through your struggles if you don't want to try online counselling.
I recognise that life's problems can cause us to react in various ways - sometimes we are tempted to try burying our problems, and failing to recognise them, or deal with them, can then cause a build-up of emotions that often don't get addressed until we reach crisis point.
This is particularly the case with Grief - it is something we all have to deal with at some time and often comes as an awful shock. Initially we can feel numbness, anger or guilt, or extreme sadness. At the the same time as we're also forced to spring into life and make all make all sorts of arrangements if a loved one has passed away, and also make necessary life changes.
Grief is something that we have to deal with sooner or later, even though it's not easy to face. It helps if you've got someone you can talk to rather than avoiding your feelings, or bottling them up. This can be a problem if the person you'd usually confide in is also grieving or if they just can't talk about loss, but want to cheer you up instead, or if you live alone with nobody to talk to.
That's where Grief counselling can help - It means you don't have to cope alone. It means you can talk to someone about what you're really going through.